Friday, April 14, 2006

` Good Friday.

wen to Bethesda Bedok-Tampines Church (BBTC) today wit uncle, aunt, cousins n sis. had service, saw ppl bein baptised, sang praises, said prayers. urdstd more abt God n Jesus Christ who shed his blood to save us all, n i really wish to urdstd more. wana get my hands on a bible n start readin. =) wana go to church, for youth service wit frenz so i wun feel as odd but not many of my close frenz r Christians. bleahs.



talkin abt ytd. had trnn at KA at 7pm. i felt tat my receivin improved, in e sense tat i wen to e rite places to wait for balls, or at least i tried. but spikin deproved, tink cuz abt 2 wks nv do gym le. well coach did comment on me. he said i knew how to "read balls" n noe wher e balls r gg, but i dun hav e "ben qian" to receive well. wherreas xiying had e ben qian, but duno wher to go. i dun tink so. i tink i jus happen to b lucky, i dun really noe how to predict wher e balls wil go to. but e fact tat i dun hav e ben qian, e skills, well tat sucked. but i wont giv up, i'l kp tryin. =)

sharon @ 6:50 AM

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Monday, April 10, 2006

` andvball..

hmms wen to c grace's n karmun's frenster profile jus now.. realised tat they're now v close. guess its cuz they're in ny vb.. seein them n e pics of andvball b girls 05.. i jus feel.. i duno. tis sadness. y i cudnt feel wad they felt. y i cud nv feel at ease wit dem. y i cudnt blend it n b part of dem. jus.. whys. tgtr for 4 yrs, but only 2 best frenz among e 9 girls. was it myself who held back, not allowin myself to get close to dem? or was it tat our characters jus nv matched.. i duno. i feel tis sense of regret den i nv felt tat close bond if frenship wit them, lke wad they share now.. n now i realise my ex teammates wil soon b my opponents in tis upcoming competition..it feels wierd. wil they bcome stronger den b4? wil i lose out to dem? i duno. it jus feels wierd..

sharon @ 5:14 AM

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` he's got my jersey num! =))

din hav pw today. she din come. we were supposed to stay back but of cuz we left. ha. met feli in canteen n realised they havent do gym yet so i cud join. but i din bring my sb. ha. so feli lend me shirt oso no use. at 1st i decided to jus heck n do gym, so i stayed on til lke 4.30 n was abt to chg b4 i felt tat it wud b really disgustin. haha. so i decided to go home in e end n not do gym. but b4 tat thou, i was outside e gym n i saw waikin in e gym. he was in e gym too, wearin his new jers. its my jersey num! 10!! but crap was, 10 aint my num anymore. bleahs. but anw. we talked!! hahas was so happy. we actu talked normally. i cudnt believe it. lol. he felt tat e num wasnt nice. but i tot it rocks. hahas den i said to him : " if u dun wan, giv me ur jersey." hahaha. pearl tot i said tat cuz it was HIS. but truth was, its bcuz of e number. haa. yea well. jus wanted to write tis out. haaa.

sharon @ 4:40 AM

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

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went for principal meet parents talk ytd n missed e frenly agst MJ at hougang sports hall. heard they played well so im glad for them. went PS wit sis n vb mates. saw tis stall selling personalised poker cards. very nice, unique n wads best was, there were majong cards! haha how convenient to play majong, anywhere n everywhere. ha. were talkin abt buyin it for vb chalet in june. ha. cost $10 if i rmbr correctly. we din buy in e end thou. ha.

ytd dad came back from work a lunatic. he went crazy, ranting n ravin at us, scoldin us for everyting n nth. got real frustrated n irrtated, wanted to tel him to stop it. but wantin to prevent further scoldings n not wantin to b rude, i kept my mouth shut. seconds later, he asked abt my new jerseys, y i chose 14, blah blah. a 180 degree chg witin secs, i cudnt adjust n answered him in e kind of irritated tone. after tat he asked my sis abt stuff n wen my sis was rude to him ( as usual ), e volcano erupted agn. he started scoldin us for not talkin to him properly n stuff. u noe jus scoldin for all e rite n wrong things. cudnt stand him. mum cudnt too. n my poor mum, got scalded at work ytd by some stupid dumb uncle who went to use a pot wit a loose handle even after my mum warned him. now she's got 5 day mc n a swollen foot. but at least my mum gets to rest at home n we can spend more time wit her.

dad's not back yet. wonder how he'l b lke today. gg to watch Tristan and Isolde tml wit pj. ha kinda dumb yea, 2 gals gg to watch a romance story. but i wana use tis time to catch up wit her. =) yea i miss u pj.


well, been abt a wk or more since i told myself to giv up. successful to a extend. but i stil hav feelings for him. cant help it, jus lke e age gap cant b helped. hmms.

sharon @ 5:11 AM

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