Wednesday, March 29, 2006

` the journey to self-discovery..

mr chew talked to us jus now. leadin us on a journey to self-discovery. i nv expected to live, but i did. i nv expected to receive medicine from some ppl, but i did. upon seein pearl n cass's tears, i really wanted to take their place instead. i initially wanted mr chew to stop e entire thing, it was hurtin everyone badly. but i din, n everyone shed tears. bein able to live wasnt a gd feelin, u had to bear wit e guilt n e pain of seein e others' tears. if u din giv someone medicine, it doesnt mean u dun care for or trust tat person, its a diff choice for everyone. i cudnt choose. emotions were high for everyone, esp so for mr chew i guess, since he has to go thru it again wit e guys. i wonder if e guys wud tear. but i guess not. but i really learnt from today n im glad mr chew org tis. my feelings towards him seems to hav turned for e beta. i duno. we'l c how.

ytd i felt tat i really really shud giv up on him. it seemed tat it was really impossible. but there times n events tat happen, wh make me tink otherwise. is it wishful tinkin on my side agn or is wad im sensin true? i duno.



message to bonnie, mingfern, feli, xi ying, gwen, mingjie, amanda, clara, cass n pearl:

i love u all. whether i gave u medicine or not, i stil love u. thank u so so much for e great great memories n frenships. =)

sharon @ 2:18 AM

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