Wednesday, March 29, 2006

` the journey to self-discovery..

mr chew talked to us jus now. leadin us on a journey to self-discovery. i nv expected to live, but i did. i nv expected to receive medicine from some ppl, but i did. upon seein pearl n cass's tears, i really wanted to take their place instead. i initially wanted mr chew to stop e entire thing, it was hurtin everyone badly. but i din, n everyone shed tears. bein able to live wasnt a gd feelin, u had to bear wit e guilt n e pain of seein e others' tears. if u din giv someone medicine, it doesnt mean u dun care for or trust tat person, its a diff choice for everyone. i cudnt choose. emotions were high for everyone, esp so for mr chew i guess, since he has to go thru it again wit e guys. i wonder if e guys wud tear. but i guess not. but i really learnt from today n im glad mr chew org tis. my feelings towards him seems to hav turned for e beta. i duno. we'l c how.

ytd i felt tat i really really shud giv up on him. it seemed tat it was really impossible. but there times n events tat happen, wh make me tink otherwise. is it wishful tinkin on my side agn or is wad im sensin true? i duno.



message to bonnie, mingfern, feli, xi ying, gwen, mingjie, amanda, clara, cass n pearl:

i love u all. whether i gave u medicine or not, i stil love u. thank u so so much for e great great memories n frenships. =)

sharon @ 2:18 AM

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

` 4605 class outing ytd. angelina flyin to aust today.

hmms. had 46 class outin ytd. wen late. reached ecp at abt 5plus. sat on e breakwater, watchin boon, teck beng, jingzhi n others throwin pebbles into e sea. fallin for jason's lame tricks and tryin to push ppl into e sea. was fun. really missed 46 alot. after tat victor n xue lin came. den bihui. they started hidin each other's slippers in e sand, havin diggin hole comp. lol. typical bihui. n typical of jason, boon, xuelin n victor to join in. lol. after tat wen pp for dinner. haha walkin to bus stop wen a 16 came. i said we cud take 16 to pp, stil wonderin whether wan to run, n suddenly chengyi zoomed past us to run for e bus. lol. so we took it, den wen it turned rite b4 pp den i rmbred 16 din go pp. ha. walked back. lol. had dinner at kfc. poked xuelin's 6 pac. lol. xl is damn damn fit now. rock solid pacs. n i mean ROCK SOLID. haha. me n bi hui, typical bimbos, walauin over his pacs. lol. he n victor din eat fried food for lke 2 mths. all cuz of canoein. lol. i fed xl french fries while he was stil queuin for his food, wit it stuck btw his teeth, he looked at vic wit amzement n called victor! haha. tat was how deprived he was. lol. tough stuff, canoein. n many hockers from 46, haha. jason, limei, chee sheng. after havin hockey durin pe in anderson all e time they're stil not tired of it. boon's stil at squash, for e same reasons as me i realise, to finally win after 4 yrs of losin.
angelina flyin off today. din go n send her off cuz stil hav loads of hw to do. wishin her all da best.


hmms. each time i c him at class outings, i wud owaes wonder if i made e rite decision den. is it true tat at tat pt in time, i cudnt c e man tat he cud b? i owaes wonder if i'l regret my decision, after seein him at class outings. but there's nth i can do now, n i'l only hav myself to blame if i really do regret it. its wierd, how i owaes tink abt tis upon seein him, n yet wen i dun c him, i wudnt tink abt it, i wud b interested in my own ec. hmm hard to figure it out. only time wil tel.


i really miss 46. so envious tat vic, j, boon n chee sheng can b in e same class. while me, jw, bh, deb n jul r lke all diff schs. 4mths ago i wished tat 46 cud hav wen to e same jc, n b back in e same class, now i stil tink e same. no class can ever b as fun as 4605. n now tat aik siong, law, mak n ben left, 06s37 aint e same too. i really really miss e past. n of all these guys, i miss aik siong e most. no one calls me teng, lai in e same way now. i envy aik siong's class now in tj. they're so lucky. truely.

sharon @ 1:18 AM

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

` frenly wit tp.

so sad. today frenly wit tp. C at 1st said pearl played 3rd, i play 4th, mj play 5th set. den suddenly he put me in for 3rd set, pearl sit out. yea well. so zun. N came in, sat dwn at e stage wit his frenz n watched. n so zun, wen pearl was playin, e guys came in, sat dwn n watched. such timing. n e sad tink is, i got scolded by C. he really raised his voice n from his tone u cud tel he was pissed. got scolded for my receiving. ya i noe its my fault but it stil doesnt feel gd. den my spikin was quite gd today, i personally tink, due to gym ytd, but thru out tat set i only spiked lke wad 5 balls? i hardly rmbr i spiked. cept for tat 2 balls wh were not bad. but e wasted tink was, i din get more chance to spike. after we lost e 4th set, C immediately put back e main team players for e 5th set. so kiasu. lke seriously. we already won 1st 3 sets, so wads wrong in lettin reserves play for e last set, for jus tat little experience? mj told me there n den, tat he was ks. n i totally agree. now at trnn, frenlys, im already lke sittin out most of e time. i duno how i'l feel wen it comes to e real comps. hai. kept broodin abt it. gettin scolded cuz i din play well. n oso. kp hopin tat kzai wud msg me, comfort me. silly n totally wishful tinkin of cuz. but i cud dream cudnt i. hai stil feelin kinda dwn. hope i can receive well on thur, spike well, play well. i not jus wan myself to improve, but e whole team to improve tgtr. we wana b champs.

sharon @ 5:58 AM

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

` vjc volleyball rocks

hahas okay okay since pj kelp bugging n bugging me to update my blog, i shall do it. haha. yes dear i miss u too. miss havin tat someone whom no matter how close we r, no matter how often we c each other eveyrday, i wil nv ger seriously pissed off by her. haa. i stil love u e most pj! lol. yea tml gg ur hse. i bet i wun get any studyin done. AGAIN. haha.

n yea. v long since i blogged. got a new ec le. ahha. oh hav i mentioned him b4? i duno. lol. is a ip1. haha. shucks rite. vballer too. tall. cute. to me la. haha.

hmms vb camp jus over. very tiring. but v fulfilling. we achieved much of our objectives. so im glad. we really wana b champs. =D
very glad to hav found tis bunch of teammates. found many many great frenz n memories.
n of cuz glad tat im on gd terms wit some of e vb guys. i miss e closeness btw vb guys n girls lke back in ass.

okay la. nth much to say le. til nex time.. haha.

sharon @ 5:23 AM

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