` farewell day.
today was farewell day. was actu sceptical abt wad e sch has planned for us tat wud succeed in makin us cry. i din tot i wud cry. but i was so wrong. givin ppl e green ribbon. all e hugs. all e tears. all e smiles. all e frenships. i love u guys so much. really.
gave e 1st ribbon to mrs tan. wanted to thank her for givin me e chance at e start of e year. was only onto my 2nd sentence wen my throat was already so clogged wit emotion i cud hardly speak. mrs tan cudnt bear wit us too. wen she made her speech she looked as thou she wanted to cry. after tat was e vballers. gosh i nv knew how much i missed dem til i hugged dem agn. all e memories came floodin back. e happy trnn days. e sad trnn days. we laughed tgtr. cried tgtr. n we cried tgtr agn. today. now tat i tink back, i cant even rmbr if i hugged li mei. lol. if i din, well i love u babe. but i rmbered huggin jingyi. she was desperately holdin her tears back while i jus cried my heart out on her shoulders. for wad had been. wad cud be. n wad wil be. bein on e court wit her by her side owaes made me feel safe. i nv knew tat she too appreciated me by her side too. den grace. huggin someone taller den me tightly felt so gd. she cried n i cried n we wanted to b in e same team agn. jean was precious. she said thanks for bein her teammate. i told her she was our best setter. wh is e truth. she even apologised 4 not playin beta or more seriously. cant rmbr clearly. seein ur teammates cry jus makes u cry wit dem too. i nv knew how muich i missed dem n love dem til we hugged agn. n small von. miss e old times. miss e best frenship we used to hav.
huggin puay fen made me feel so secure. havin her by my side as a fren has owaes made me feel secure. she din cry. ha. but i noe she's appreciatin her frens jus lke us too. den jules. man huggin her n cryin wit her jus made everytink rite agn. im sorry jules. lke i said jus now, for all e times i att u, for all e times i caused unhappiness btw us, im sorry. i dun mean it. anws im glad tats behind us now. i guess every frenship has its ups n downs. jus tat we hav our downs more often. haa. ur stil my best fren. n u wun b disappointed tis yr. so dun disappoint us too k? hope u'l enjoy urself tml. n we'l hav so much fun. =] love u girl. pj. ha she wet my blouse. den she wiped it, causin it to stick to my arm. eeew. hahaha. hugged her n cried agn, apologisin agn. gosh im such a lousy fren. apologisin to so many ppl. but yea. im sorry i pangsehed u n jules n my other frenz in e past b4 but it wudnt happen agn. seriously. u were e ones hu were there 4 me n i wana b there 4 u too. esp u pj. even if we dun end up in e same jc. im sure we wud stil b lke we r today. e best of best frenz. hugs.
haa i went rd huggin e guys. lol. yea call me flirt call me loose but i dun tink i m. im jus expressin my love 4 my clazmates thru huggin. im liberal. ha. i mean, we're all 16 already. y e awkwardness btw guys n gals? huggin doesnt mean anytink. its jus a form of expressin ur affections. hehhs. anws. yea hugged fabian 1st. ha. den was.. hmms singhwa. n jiahao. haha they r losers lo so awkward abt huggin. lol. ppl lke boon hong n victor were so on! they din feel any awkwardness. which is gd. it shows their sense of maturity. ha. yea boon hong surprised me. i nv expected him to so readily hug me back. he's such a great guy. he din lke jus put his arms ard but there was a huge gap btw e bodies. he jus.. hugged. lol. he even bent dwn to hug jules. lke how sensitive is tat? i jus realised he's a SNAG too. hao nan ren. haha i realise our claz got quite alot of hao nan rens. lol. haha n idiot victor. wen hug him, knock my teeth agst his collar bone. idiot seh. lol. but oh well. at least i can reach his collar bone. hahaha. but yea he was cool abt it too. wh is great. =] hashir was cool abt it too. xl was shy haha but after tat he did it but he was stil shy. lol. jason was oso shy. haha. so cute la our claz guys. i'l miss dem so much. n i nearly forgot. jingzhi was anr cool guy. he had absolutely no qualms abt holdin my hand durin e last item today! ha. he jus wasnt affected los. lol. n he did lke jus hold one finger tat kinda tink. lol. our claz really got quite a few hao nan rens. 1) boon hong. 2) jingzhi. 3) victor. 4) zuojie. 5) xuelin. n how cud i forget. 6) jason. haha. not bad. our claz guys got hope. lol. i love u guys! ha.
i realised i lke huggin. haha i dun mean anytink horny ok. lol. jus.. it was gd to jus hug ppl u love, cry wit dem. or jus hug dem lke e guys. i lke tis form of showin affection. a handshake is jus so formal. hehhs. n oh no i tinkim really fallin for him. lol. he's jus so.. cute. haa. ok la mayb cute isnt e word but.. ya. he's great. hehhs. cant help starin. lol. duno if its jus a crush or?? haha. i duno. but i dun tink things wud work out la. yea. im happy jus carryin a torch for someone. lol. but sad i cant c him so often anymore le. haha. *secretive*
but back to frenships. pj n jules. we're best frenz since.. sec 3? i duno. cant rmbr wen exactly 3 of us became a grp but we jsu did n its great. i noe i hav been mean to u guys, att u, n im sorry noe. even durin e quarrel wit pj or durin e cold wars we wud hav in claz wit jules, i stil love u both alot. i hope we wud owaes remain e best of best frenz.
puay fen n li mei, both of u owaes gave me mature n great advice n i thank u both. for stadnin by me whether i nd it or not. i may kp suanin ur but i really appreciate ur. love u 2 loads.
bi hui n deb, we may not b tat close but ur r stil in my heart. thanks for e concern ur showed. love u too.
n.. guys. hai i'l really miss ur so so much. e guys we're surrounded by, singhwa, victor, jiahao, zuojie, guodong, xuelin. u guys jus made life so wonderful. so happy. full of laughter n joy. i cant imagine lessons n life w/o u guys. sad tat we'l b partin. but hope we'l b in e same jc. even more sad tat i wun b in same claz as ur. since i'l b in e arts stream. duno if i shud take sciences, cuz if i do, tat means i can stil b in same claz wit ur. but i duno. jus noe tat i love u guys. for alle joy ur brought me. ur crap, ur shit, ur jokes, n jus bein u. we're e circus! haha. hugs. not 4gettin jason, boon hong, cheesheng, teng kiat.. yea e usual gang. love u. i'l really miss u guys. dun ever 4get me k cuz i'l nv b able to 4get u.
4/6. sworn to perfection.
