Saturday, October 29, 2005
` hmms.
studied til 3.30am tis morn n my stupid sis had to wake me up at 9.45am.i din even get my 8 hrs of slp. totally pissed off n damn frustrated. cuz im a light slper n once im awake i cant fall back to slp agn. den i jus went to kp my sis. haa. chi is on mon n im stil rushin thru the complied handbk.its so damn borin. bleahs.
cousins at my hse now. kinda irritatin. kp lookin at wad im doin. >.< i stil prefer babies n toddlers. haa.
hmms i saw his frenster jus now. gosh wad a flirt. im lke so disgusted. he's not jus a loser but a liar a jerk a flirt an ass. totally. his gf is disgustin too. so slutty. eeew.
but dun get me wrong, im not jealous. i love my life now. n im happy to hav him in my life. hee. he really makes me happy. =D
oh well. its back to studyin liaos. >.<
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
` physics pract.
hmms physics pract later. i hardly studied. din noe wad to study. so jus look thru pract bk n tb. cudnt find the past yr pract papers. haa. im so dead. n i din get my gown cuz my mum was SLEEPIN. wad a pig. haa.
hmms. kp wakin up to check hp ytd nite. was waitin for a gd morn msg. din receive it but he did msg me, tellin me to tc. was beta den nth i guess.
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
` chem pract
ok so chem pract sucked wit tat stupid 5 mark qns n the dirty brown ppt.. bloody hell not dirty green, not reddish brown but i got dirty brown.. n i stil put Fe3+. oh hell. jus hope tat physics pract wun b as bad on thur..
but sure had fun b4 chem pract thou. lol. our corner was so noisy. haha. playin wit paper.. makin tat loud pop sound. haha jason was damn gd man his pop was LOUD.. lol. mine was.. soft. haha but not as bad as victor who cudnt do it no matter how many times he tried n after tat he said tat we're childish.. lol! bi hui cudnt do it too. haa 6pointers.
yeaa gona get my gown tml! hope it'l turn out great wit my heels den dun havta buy new heels. hmms gg kovan for sushi later. haa.
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
` im sorry.
im sorry. but giv me some time.
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Saturday, October 22, 2005
` thank you dear Lord.
thank you dear Lord for answerin my prayers, for helpin us n guidin my family thru tis period of difficult times. not all our problems r solved yet, but thank you for taking part of the load of our shoulders. a million thank yous cannot convey my gratitude but all e same, i thank you once again.
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
` tired.
i jus had my sis giv me ting xie for the alphabets A-E n im mentally exhausted. i nv knew havin ting xie cud b so tiring. n e worst tink was i forgot quite some words. damn. there r stil lke 20 plus more alphabets. how to rmbr everytink. argh. i'l love to chat wit him rite now. he'l b able to make me smile. waitin for him to come online. hmm.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
` pj..
pj.. jus wana say sorry. i wasnt in a gd mood ytd la. den ken make me. i jiu bth lo. sorry bout my lousy attitude k.
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
` bio pract sucked.
e bio pract sucked. i din hav time to finish one qns n i wasnt in such a bad mood until tat asshole kenneth laughed at my name agn. wads so funny abt teo teng lai u loser. im proud of my name ok u no manners brute. i din even laugh at ur name so f off from my name. u piss me off. n ur apology wasnt accepted.
n thanks idiot for pang sehin me. say got msg me oso din. i waited 4 u lor. anr idiot. i duno who's e bigger one, u or me cuz i WAITED FOR U. i dun wana talk to u yummie idiot.
n to those from my claz who saw my blog, pls rmbr to bring the card for mdm wong TML. physics starts at 8.
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
` runnin from kitty!
lol i jus came home from dinner. n i cant believe tat i actu RAN AWAY from a kitten. lol. so paiseh!! haha. my stupid sis la. lol. saw e kitten on e way home. she approached it n started mewin to it. n e kitten jus went to my sis n started.. rubbin? rubbin agst her legs. the kitten din wana stop n jus kp rubbin lol. i told my sis to walk away from it n after tat it came in my direction. i was kinda freaked out n jus backed away. LOL. so scary wher got cats so open wan, jus go to u willingly n rub?? lol. i was scared haha i din wan it to rub agst my legs too lol. den the kitten continued in my direction n e nex tink i did was turn n RAN. lol. i cant believe tat i actu did tat. lol so damn paiseh. n my stupid sis kept mewin at it n beckonin it to follow us. LOL. she's an idiot la she ran wit me den after tat she mew at e kitten, wantin it to follow us. lol. but e kitten is pitiful.. it was cute too la but its eagerness to cuddle agst ppl freaked me out. lol. so sui pian. hahaha. jkjk. lol.
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` raining day..
its such a great rainin day.. hav been rainin non-stop since 1.. yet i cant even slp in peace! woken up TWICE by phone calls. only slept from 3 to 4.30. poor me. now im grouchy. grrr. kp waitin for him to online but he din, so i shut dwn e com n went to slp. now tat im back online, he's stil nowher to b seen. idiot.
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
` hees.
ok. im happy now. =P
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` vjc open hse
wen vjc open hse today wit the guys, pf bh deb n leny..hmms.. the place kinda old..not as interestin n nice as ny.. i lke ny beta lehs.. hmms. den e vb players so tall! i go there sure sit bench de lo.. bleahs. den the bus trip so long.. oso quite sians. ha e claz guys so idiot.. wishy washy.. at 1st wan go beach.. den they tu tu tu.. jiu nv go liao.. wen parkway lunch.. saw larre.. he said pei en n many others went e open hse too.. but i din c dem los. sians. hope to meet up wit dem soon den go c ms chua n her baby! haa. hmms. breakfast was kinda funny. most of e guys ate lke 2 burgers. lol. den lunch at parkway.. ask dem wan eat wad jiu anytink anytink..tel me n pf to decide.. den ok lo since yoshinoya rite in front jiu go yoshinoya eat.. den after tat e guys lke dun wan eat. den i sian diao lor n started to kinda scold dem. ha. idiots lo the whole gang, wishy washy den dun wan decide eat wad.. den we decide liao they dun wan eat.. dne they shud decide in e 1st place ma.. idiots la. haa. but sorry guys i din mean to yell at ur la.. jus cant stand ur wishy washyness. n i wasnt angry. lol. jus.. rash. ha. den pf pulled me away. funny. lol. i wasnt even angry. haha. ya guys.. ur dun so wishy washy la pls.. girls dun lke guys to b wishy washy de.. but i stil love ur. aha. den on e bus back home lol! hahaha. i blew e.. bubble? do u call it bubble? lol. anws. i blew it wit e idea of addin mickey mouse ears to pf's balloon..but it cudnt stick.. den as i held it in my hand, lookin at it, a sudden temptation took over me n i immediately burst the bubble agst jason's face. lol. it was DAMN funny. hahaha. j was shocked. n the tattered remains of the bubble stuck to his specs. hahaha. den he began blowin one too, n i sincerely believe, wit e intention of slammin it agst my face. but hahaha as he was blowin wit the straw btw his lips n the bubble rite in front of his face, a great idea came to me once agn n i smashed the bubble agst his face. agn. LOL. hahaha i cudnt stop laughin. victor looked at me wit eyes there were.. scoldin? haha i duno but it was funny. lol. im sorry jason! haha actu im not sorry at all. hahaha. den after tat.. i blew anr one agn.. haha n tis time.. i smashed it in victor's face. but it din exactly burst but kinda stuck to his specs. haha. he had a hard time peelin it off? lol. n he had to adjust his specs. lol. im sorry victor. haha. but actu.. im not. LOL. i m so mean.. hahaha. but oh well. it was fun. haa. rite yummy vic? haha.
den went pf's hse.. girl im glad tat u cud talk to me abt those stuff. i wud owaes b here 4 u if u nd me n we'l go to e same jc yea? or poly. wadever it is. hehhs. frenz forever. or rather.. sisters forever. =] hugs. love ya.
hmms i duno abt his feelins.. but.. i hope? hmms. perhaps he noes mine, since im lke kinda obvious? lol. but if he doesnt den nvm. if things r meant to b, it will b. n he's jus great. hehhs. im not sayin anytink. lol.
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
` great memories.
after geog today.. stayed back in claz n jus hang ard wit jules n the guys.. jason n gang.. was fun to jus sit dwn.. take pics of each other.. talk..threw eraser at each other (i threw n it hit victor's head anw haha).. i din feel lke leavin. din wana leave. den we walked to amk tgtr. said lame jokes. stepped on their shoes. jus enjoyed the moment of bein wit dem. its funny y ppl noe how to cherish n treasure more only wen they're gona b losin it soon.. k mayb its jus me but.. i duno in e past i din treasure e times spent wit e guys as much as i do now.. im such an idiot i guess. hai i really dun wana part wit dem. i wan so much 2b in e same claz wit dem nex yr..
hmms he makes me laugh he makes me smile.. he makes me happy. he duno my feelins but im happy to jus b frenz wit him. he's jus great. hees.
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` happy birthday jules
happy birthday jules! im sorry we cudnt go out tgtr today but anr day wen pj can den we go take neo tgtr. althou we can jus use ur digicam la. haha. hope u lke ur watch. n u'l b havin anr prex 4 e guys. haha. shant tel u wad yet. lol. may all ur wishes n dreams come true n score well for Os ok? den we wil b in same jc! hehhs. i love u girl. love u alot depsite our cold wars n quarrels n unhappiness. thanks for bein ther 4 me, for e great times spent tgtr. best frenz forever. hugs.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
` farewell day.
today was farewell day. was actu sceptical abt wad e sch has planned for us tat wud succeed in makin us cry. i din tot i wud cry. but i was so wrong. givin ppl e green ribbon. all e hugs. all e tears. all e smiles. all e frenships. i love u guys so much. really.
gave e 1st ribbon to mrs tan. wanted to thank her for givin me e chance at e start of e year. was only onto my 2nd sentence wen my throat was already so clogged wit emotion i cud hardly speak. mrs tan cudnt bear wit us too. wen she made her speech she looked as thou she wanted to cry. after tat was e vballers. gosh i nv knew how much i missed dem til i hugged dem agn. all e memories came floodin back. e happy trnn days. e sad trnn days. we laughed tgtr. cried tgtr. n we cried tgtr agn. today. now tat i tink back, i cant even rmbr if i hugged li mei. lol. if i din, well i love u babe. but i rmbered huggin jingyi. she was desperately holdin her tears back while i jus cried my heart out on her shoulders. for wad had been. wad cud be. n wad wil be. bein on e court wit her by her side owaes made me feel safe. i nv knew tat she too appreciated me by her side too. den grace. huggin someone taller den me tightly felt so gd. she cried n i cried n we wanted to b in e same team agn. jean was precious. she said thanks for bein her teammate. i told her she was our best setter. wh is e truth. she even apologised 4 not playin beta or more seriously. cant rmbr clearly. seein ur teammates cry jus makes u cry wit dem too. i nv knew how muich i missed dem n love dem til we hugged agn. n small von. miss e old times. miss e best frenship we used to hav.
huggin puay fen made me feel so secure. havin her by my side as a fren has owaes made me feel secure. she din cry. ha. but i noe she's appreciatin her frens jus lke us too. den jules. man huggin her n cryin wit her jus made everytink rite agn. im sorry jules. lke i said jus now, for all e times i att u, for all e times i caused unhappiness btw us, im sorry. i dun mean it. anws im glad tats behind us now. i guess every frenship has its ups n downs. jus tat we hav our downs more often. haa. ur stil my best fren. n u wun b disappointed tis yr. so dun disappoint us too k? hope u'l enjoy urself tml. n we'l hav so much fun. =] love u girl. pj. ha she wet my blouse. den she wiped it, causin it to stick to my arm. eeew. hahaha. hugged her n cried agn, apologisin agn. gosh im such a lousy fren. apologisin to so many ppl. but yea. im sorry i pangsehed u n jules n my other frenz in e past b4 but it wudnt happen agn. seriously. u were e ones hu were there 4 me n i wana b there 4 u too. esp u pj. even if we dun end up in e same jc. im sure we wud stil b lke we r today. e best of best frenz. hugs.
haa i went rd huggin e guys. lol. yea call me flirt call me loose but i dun tink i m. im jus expressin my love 4 my clazmates thru huggin. im liberal. ha. i mean, we're all 16 already. y e awkwardness btw guys n gals? huggin doesnt mean anytink. its jus a form of expressin ur affections. hehhs. anws. yea hugged fabian 1st. ha. den was.. hmms singhwa. n jiahao. haha they r losers lo so awkward abt huggin. lol. ppl lke boon hong n victor were so on! they din feel any awkwardness. which is gd. it shows their sense of maturity. ha. yea boon hong surprised me. i nv expected him to so readily hug me back. he's such a great guy. he din lke jus put his arms ard but there was a huge gap btw e bodies. he jus.. hugged. lol. he even bent dwn to hug jules. lke how sensitive is tat? i jus realised he's a SNAG too. hao nan ren. haha i realise our claz got quite alot of hao nan rens. lol. haha n idiot victor. wen hug him, knock my teeth agst his collar bone. idiot seh. lol. but oh well. at least i can reach his collar bone. hahaha. but yea he was cool abt it too. wh is great. =] hashir was cool abt it too. xl was shy haha but after tat he did it but he was stil shy. lol. jason was oso shy. haha. so cute la our claz guys. i'l miss dem so much. n i nearly forgot. jingzhi was anr cool guy. he had absolutely no qualms abt holdin my hand durin e last item today! ha. he jus wasnt affected los. lol. n he did lke jus hold one finger tat kinda tink. lol. our claz really got quite a few hao nan rens. 1) boon hong. 2) jingzhi. 3) victor. 4) zuojie. 5) xuelin. n how cud i forget. 6) jason. haha. not bad. our claz guys got hope. lol. i love u guys! ha.
i realised i lke huggin. haha i dun mean anytink horny ok. lol. jus.. it was gd to jus hug ppl u love, cry wit dem. or jus hug dem lke e guys. i lke tis form of showin affection. a handshake is jus so formal. hehhs. n oh no i tinkim really fallin for him. lol. he's jus so.. cute. haa. ok la mayb cute isnt e word but.. ya. he's great. hehhs. cant help starin. lol. duno if its jus a crush or?? haha. i duno. but i dun tink things wud work out la. yea. im happy jus carryin a torch for someone. lol. but sad i cant c him so often anymore le. haha. *secretive*
but back to frenships. pj n jules. we're best frenz since.. sec 3? i duno. cant rmbr wen exactly 3 of us became a grp but we jsu did n its great. i noe i hav been mean to u guys, att u, n im sorry noe. even durin e quarrel wit pj or durin e cold wars we wud hav in claz wit jules, i stil love u both alot. i hope we wud owaes remain e best of best frenz.
puay fen n li mei, both of u owaes gave me mature n great advice n i thank u both. for stadnin by me whether i nd it or not. i may kp suanin ur but i really appreciate ur. love u 2 loads.
bi hui n deb, we may not b tat close but ur r stil in my heart. thanks for e concern ur showed. love u too.
n.. guys. hai i'l really miss ur so so much. e guys we're surrounded by, singhwa, victor, jiahao, zuojie, guodong, xuelin. u guys jus made life so wonderful. so happy. full of laughter n joy. i cant imagine lessons n life w/o u guys. sad tat we'l b partin. but hope we'l b in e same jc. even more sad tat i wun b in same claz as ur. since i'l b in e arts stream. duno if i shud take sciences, cuz if i do, tat means i can stil b in same claz wit ur. but i duno. jus noe tat i love u guys. for alle joy ur brought me. ur crap, ur shit, ur jokes, n jus bein u. we're e circus! haha. hugs. not 4gettin jason, boon hong, cheesheng, teng kiat.. yea e usual gang. love u. i'l really miss u guys. dun ever 4get me k cuz i'l nv b able to 4get u.
4/6. sworn to perfection.
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
` tml's e last day of sch..
hmms.. tml's e last day of sch..at 1st wasnt too affected by it..cuz i noe i'l stil b seein my claz for lessons n open hses..but after seein pj's blog.. hmms. e time for us tgtr as a claz is really gettin v short.. in fact..its comin to an end soon.. i'l really really miss u guys so damn much.. i'l miss jules puay fen li mei bi hui deborah.. singhwa victor jiahao zuojie guodong xuelin.. hashir jason boon hong chee sheng.. man e list jus goes on.. e girls.. e guys.. but esp e grp of ppl im surrounded by in class..in future i wun get to poke singhwa..nor victor n jiahao.. wun get to c jiahao's zi pian zi dao zi yan.. wun get to c victor's coolness.. wun get to hear xuelin's high pitched childish comments.. wun get to c guodong act cute agn.. tats y today in sch.. kept lookin at e guys in front of me..tryin to capture as much memories as possible..even if we do get into e same jc..i dun tink i'l b in e same claz as dem..cuz i'l b in e arts stream.. everyone else seems 2b gg for sciences..wh is sad.. how i wish we wudnt hav to separate.. 4/6 i really love u guys.. althou our class guys r stil so childish but i'l stil say tis.. i love u guys!! n im gona miss ur so much.. hmms. dun tink wil cry tml..? i duno wad e sch has planned 4 us n can make us cry.. i'l stil b seein my claz on fri for geog n sat for vjc open hse.. so its not so bad.. i guess..
as for pj.. i noe we'l stil kp in contact.. we definitely will.. cuz i noe tat no matter e dist btw us..we'l owaes b best frenz.. even if we haven been chattin for a long while..tats jus how special e frenship is btw us.. jus lke u've owaes been there 4 me.. in future i'l definitely b there 4 u too..thou of cuz it wud b best if we go same jc.. go vjc la.. haaa. i love u pj.
jules..i love ya too. muz jiayou for Os..we'l study tgtr after sch ends..n hope u'l enjoy urself tis thur.. u were there 4 me too wen i nded someone n i thank u 4 tat..lkewise i'l owaes b here if u nd me.. same for pf lm bh n deb.. u gals wud owaes b in my heart..my special buddies who accepted me for who i m.. n stood by me wen e whole world came crashin dwn on me..thanks for all e support..i love u gals.
thanks my frenz for all e memories.. i hope there'l stil b more in future.. hugs. i love 4/6.
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` kinda pissed off n disappointed.
wanted to buy her a bdae prex. so she'l b happy. managed to get all e money in a day. but in e end she says she doesnt wan or nd anytink. tgtr wit a att tat sucked. tats wad i get 4 bein her best fren hu wanted to giv her her bdae prex on time. we were really sincere abt gettin her a prex. but cold water was dashed upon us all by the unappreciative response. its at least basic courtesy to accept a prex or ans me nicely rather den giv a sucky att. pissed me off since i was really sincere abt it.
really cant stand it wen u pms or att n the crap lasts e whole day. spoils my day esp wen im cut off by u from pf in class. i really din wana say stuff lke tis on e blog. but i duno how else to tel u. sorry bout usin such a way of sayin. but i stil love u girl. u'l owaes b my best fren.
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Monday, October 10, 2005
` hai disappointed.
i jus got home from sch. jus checked our L1R5 n class n level position. damns im 30th in class n 98th in the level. tat sucks lo. sians puay fen got 7 i got 9 but she's 7th in class n 21st in level.. but oh well. she did well in all her subs. i hav lke 2 C5s. ha. but.. aiya. sian diao. duno lidat i can get into the top 5 jcs not. but i really wana do my dad proud.. but at e same time. the gd jcs r lke so far.. hais. duno la. jiu abit sian diao liao.
but nvm. im definitely gona work hard n score straight As for Os! haa i hope. lol. hmms gg town on thur. but b4 tat wil hav geog lesson. wh is lke boring. hmm stil cant decide whether i shud wear my white heels wit my brown gown/3/4 dress den buy a white necklace to pei or shud buy black heels instead. n duno if i shud do anytink abt my hair. n duno wad earrings to wear. LOL. lke so silly stupid tinks. haha. but i cant wait thou. hehhs.
lol oh ya n ytd i was lke so stupid. lol. cuz watched date wit vampire 3. my fav show man. simply rocks. ya anws. cuz e show was lke abt ghosts. scary. wads more im e timid type. lol. ya anws. i was on my bed, lights off already. den i saw tis shadow crouching at my table. i cud lke c a white shirt n dark pants on the guy n he seemed to b lookin in my direction. gosh i was lke so so freaked out. i din dare go on e lights cuz if i switched on e lights i wud havta walk past e shadow n i din dare to. i was so scared, heart thumpin n was tinkin of callin fadzli wen i realised tat callin him is useless. so i called my house phone instead. lol. i knew my dad was stil awake so i called him n told him to come into my rm n help me swtich on my lights. n guess wad. e shadow was cuz of a stool in my rm, wit books on it n bags at e leg of e stool. hhaa. sure freaked me out 4 nth. lol. wild imagination huh. haha. but oh hell. i admit. im timid! lol.
okaz i'l stop here le. haa. i muz study hard!
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
` my first entry. =]
once agn.. a new blog, new entry, new beginning.
wanted to start anr blog agn n tis time rd, update it regularly. ha.
life's been gd, ever since e incident a month ago. how time flies, its already more den a mth. ive picked up e pieces n moved on in life, in fact, i tink im beta den ive ever been b4. scored quite well for my prelims, as compared to my lousy grades in e past. thank God for giving me the strength n courage, and lettin me obtain such grades.
but yet anr dilemma comes along, duno which jc to go. or rather, is it poly or jc for me. it remains a mystery. but at least i hav til after the Os b4 finally deciding. but one thing's for sure, i'l miss my besties n class. 4/6 is e best class ive ever been in n it sure makes me sad to think that we'l b partin. wudnt it b nice if we cud all go to e same jc n b in e same class back agn. oh well. nth's gona b e same agn.
heard from him today n ytd. he's havin some probs wit his new gal. surprisingly, i actu advised him abt his probs n how to b a beta bf. wierd huh. but i felt nth. i duno. guess im lettin go faster den i tot wud. i thank God agn, for helpin me cope thru tat difficult period, for giving me great frenz who stood by me.
im happy wit my life now. i hav my best frenz. close frenz from outside. my family, my studies. im bondin much beta wit my family now, esp my dad. i can tel he's real proud of me abt my prelim results. tellin my uncle that i even got 2 A1s wen actu, 2 A1s is lke so meagre. lol. but i can reall tel his proud. i guess after 4yrs of disappointment, i finally gave him reason 2b proud of me agn. there n den in e car, i realised tat i wanted to score straight As for my Os. just for my dad. to do him proud. i wan to proudly tel my family durin new yr tat im in raffles jc for e 1st 3 mths. even if not raffles, den at least one of the top 5 jcs. i hope. but yea. im happy wit my life now. content wit bein hu i m now. no pressure from anyone. guess i'l stop here. sis is rushin me. she wana play maple. haha. ok shes scoldin me now. lol. wad an a**. hahaha. kiddin baby sis. tata everyone.
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