Friday, July 14, 2006

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moved
to
deutschland.
goodbye.

sharon @ 8:11 AM

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

` VJC volleyball ROCKS. =DDD

its been quite some time since i blogged, havin been so busy wit trnns, comps, pw n sth else. so i was quite surprised wen i saw so many ppl tagged in response to my entry dated 22nd april.



well wad i wana say is, i hav clarified matters wit anqi, i've told her wad r my opinions, she told me hers, n i offered her my apologies. cuz i was harsh n wrong for judgin her so quickly without urdstdin her situation, but i stil do feel tat she shud hav tried harder to accept bein in vj. wh means, im sorry for e way i behaved, but not for my tots. im not oso sayin tis on acct for tat annoymous person who tagged, but is to jus let my frenz, who r concerned abt me, urdstd. tis is definitely not ma hou pao too. but if u dun believe, i dun care. y care so much abt other ppl
s opinions? =) so long as anqi n i both noe wads gg on, den its fine. thanks gals, for givin me ur support. thou i only saw it today, haa but nevertheless it stil matters alot to me n i thank u all for tat. HUGS. i love u gals! n mathew, thank you too. thank u all for not judgin me so harshly lke i did anqi n lke annoymous did me but talk to me rationally. =)



yea well. back to my life. really been v busy. vb vb n vb. laggin behind alot in sch. n oso pw is drivin me crazy. i realise our grp is actu not v productive. it may b e loudest, but not e most productive. n i dun hav e time to really sit dwn wit dem n do a gd job. everyone is busy wit their ccas. n im frantically tryin to do my tuts. qt stressed la, laggin behind in everytink. got econs test nex tue, tink i'l flunk it. bleahs. but oh well, at least i get to talk to him more tis days. haaa. happy abt it. n vjc guys n gals team got into nationals top 4 so im v v glad tat our hardwork has paid off. =D v proud of e entire vball team. hees. tml morn got trnn. qt lookin forward to it. gg back to sch for speech day nex thur. wil get to c jingwen n frenz. glad. ha. ok i'l stop here. gota get back to doin my research. tc everyone.

sharon @ 12:52 AM

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Friday, April 14, 2006

` Good Friday.

wen to Bethesda Bedok-Tampines Church (BBTC) today wit uncle, aunt, cousins n sis. had service, saw ppl bein baptised, sang praises, said prayers. urdstd more abt God n Jesus Christ who shed his blood to save us all, n i really wish to urdstd more. wana get my hands on a bible n start readin. =) wana go to church, for youth service wit frenz so i wun feel as odd but not many of my close frenz r Christians. bleahs.



talkin abt ytd. had trnn at KA at 7pm. i felt tat my receivin improved, in e sense tat i wen to e rite places to wait for balls, or at least i tried. but spikin deproved, tink cuz abt 2 wks nv do gym le. well coach did comment on me. he said i knew how to "read balls" n noe wher e balls r gg, but i dun hav e "ben qian" to receive well. wherreas xiying had e ben qian, but duno wher to go. i dun tink so. i tink i jus happen to b lucky, i dun really noe how to predict wher e balls wil go to. but e fact tat i dun hav e ben qian, e skills, well tat sucked. but i wont giv up, i'l kp tryin. =)

sharon @ 6:50 AM

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Monday, April 10, 2006

` andvball..

hmms wen to c grace's n karmun's frenster profile jus now.. realised tat they're now v close. guess its cuz they're in ny vb.. seein them n e pics of andvball b girls 05.. i jus feel.. i duno. tis sadness. y i cudnt feel wad they felt. y i cud nv feel at ease wit dem. y i cudnt blend it n b part of dem. jus.. whys. tgtr for 4 yrs, but only 2 best frenz among e 9 girls. was it myself who held back, not allowin myself to get close to dem? or was it tat our characters jus nv matched.. i duno. i feel tis sense of regret den i nv felt tat close bond if frenship wit them, lke wad they share now.. n now i realise my ex teammates wil soon b my opponents in tis upcoming competition..it feels wierd. wil they bcome stronger den b4? wil i lose out to dem? i duno. it jus feels wierd..

sharon @ 5:14 AM

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` he's got my jersey num! =))

din hav pw today. she din come. we were supposed to stay back but of cuz we left. ha. met feli in canteen n realised they havent do gym yet so i cud join. but i din bring my sb. ha. so feli lend me shirt oso no use. at 1st i decided to jus heck n do gym, so i stayed on til lke 4.30 n was abt to chg b4 i felt tat it wud b really disgustin. haha. so i decided to go home in e end n not do gym. but b4 tat thou, i was outside e gym n i saw waikin in e gym. he was in e gym too, wearin his new jers. its my jersey num! 10!! but crap was, 10 aint my num anymore. bleahs. but anw. we talked!! hahas was so happy. we actu talked normally. i cudnt believe it. lol. he felt tat e num wasnt nice. but i tot it rocks. hahas den i said to him : " if u dun wan, giv me ur jersey." hahaha. pearl tot i said tat cuz it was HIS. but truth was, its bcuz of e number. haa. yea well. jus wanted to write tis out. haaa.

sharon @ 4:40 AM

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

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went for principal meet parents talk ytd n missed e frenly agst MJ at hougang sports hall. heard they played well so im glad for them. went PS wit sis n vb mates. saw tis stall selling personalised poker cards. very nice, unique n wads best was, there were majong cards! haha how convenient to play majong, anywhere n everywhere. ha. were talkin abt buyin it for vb chalet in june. ha. cost $10 if i rmbr correctly. we din buy in e end thou. ha.

ytd dad came back from work a lunatic. he went crazy, ranting n ravin at us, scoldin us for everyting n nth. got real frustrated n irrtated, wanted to tel him to stop it. but wantin to prevent further scoldings n not wantin to b rude, i kept my mouth shut. seconds later, he asked abt my new jerseys, y i chose 14, blah blah. a 180 degree chg witin secs, i cudnt adjust n answered him in e kind of irritated tone. after tat he asked my sis abt stuff n wen my sis was rude to him ( as usual ), e volcano erupted agn. he started scoldin us for not talkin to him properly n stuff. u noe jus scoldin for all e rite n wrong things. cudnt stand him. mum cudnt too. n my poor mum, got scalded at work ytd by some stupid dumb uncle who went to use a pot wit a loose handle even after my mum warned him. now she's got 5 day mc n a swollen foot. but at least my mum gets to rest at home n we can spend more time wit her.

dad's not back yet. wonder how he'l b lke today. gg to watch Tristan and Isolde tml wit pj. ha kinda dumb yea, 2 gals gg to watch a romance story. but i wana use tis time to catch up wit her. =) yea i miss u pj.


well, been abt a wk or more since i told myself to giv up. successful to a extend. but i stil hav feelings for him. cant help it, jus lke e age gap cant b helped. hmms.

sharon @ 5:11 AM

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

` the journey to self-discovery..

mr chew talked to us jus now. leadin us on a journey to self-discovery. i nv expected to live, but i did. i nv expected to receive medicine from some ppl, but i did. upon seein pearl n cass's tears, i really wanted to take their place instead. i initially wanted mr chew to stop e entire thing, it was hurtin everyone badly. but i din, n everyone shed tears. bein able to live wasnt a gd feelin, u had to bear wit e guilt n e pain of seein e others' tears. if u din giv someone medicine, it doesnt mean u dun care for or trust tat person, its a diff choice for everyone. i cudnt choose. emotions were high for everyone, esp so for mr chew i guess, since he has to go thru it again wit e guys. i wonder if e guys wud tear. but i guess not. but i really learnt from today n im glad mr chew org tis. my feelings towards him seems to hav turned for e beta. i duno. we'l c how.

ytd i felt tat i really really shud giv up on him. it seemed tat it was really impossible. but there times n events tat happen, wh make me tink otherwise. is it wishful tinkin on my side agn or is wad im sensin true? i duno.



message to bonnie, mingfern, feli, xi ying, gwen, mingjie, amanda, clara, cass n pearl:

i love u all. whether i gave u medicine or not, i stil love u. thank u so so much for e great great memories n frenships. =)

sharon @ 2:18 AM

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

` 4605 class outing ytd. angelina flyin to aust today.

hmms. had 46 class outin ytd. wen late. reached ecp at abt 5plus. sat on e breakwater, watchin boon, teck beng, jingzhi n others throwin pebbles into e sea. fallin for jason's lame tricks and tryin to push ppl into e sea. was fun. really missed 46 alot. after tat victor n xue lin came. den bihui. they started hidin each other's slippers in e sand, havin diggin hole comp. lol. typical bihui. n typical of jason, boon, xuelin n victor to join in. lol. after tat wen pp for dinner. haha walkin to bus stop wen a 16 came. i said we cud take 16 to pp, stil wonderin whether wan to run, n suddenly chengyi zoomed past us to run for e bus. lol. so we took it, den wen it turned rite b4 pp den i rmbred 16 din go pp. ha. walked back. lol. had dinner at kfc. poked xuelin's 6 pac. lol. xl is damn damn fit now. rock solid pacs. n i mean ROCK SOLID. haha. me n bi hui, typical bimbos, walauin over his pacs. lol. he n victor din eat fried food for lke 2 mths. all cuz of canoein. lol. i fed xl french fries while he was stil queuin for his food, wit it stuck btw his teeth, he looked at vic wit amzement n called victor! haha. tat was how deprived he was. lol. tough stuff, canoein. n many hockers from 46, haha. jason, limei, chee sheng. after havin hockey durin pe in anderson all e time they're stil not tired of it. boon's stil at squash, for e same reasons as me i realise, to finally win after 4 yrs of losin.
angelina flyin off today. din go n send her off cuz stil hav loads of hw to do. wishin her all da best.


hmms. each time i c him at class outings, i wud owaes wonder if i made e rite decision den. is it true tat at tat pt in time, i cudnt c e man tat he cud b? i owaes wonder if i'l regret my decision, after seein him at class outings. but there's nth i can do now, n i'l only hav myself to blame if i really do regret it. its wierd, how i owaes tink abt tis upon seein him, n yet wen i dun c him, i wudnt tink abt it, i wud b interested in my own ec. hmm hard to figure it out. only time wil tel.


i really miss 46. so envious tat vic, j, boon n chee sheng can b in e same class. while me, jw, bh, deb n jul r lke all diff schs. 4mths ago i wished tat 46 cud hav wen to e same jc, n b back in e same class, now i stil tink e same. no class can ever b as fun as 4605. n now tat aik siong, law, mak n ben left, 06s37 aint e same too. i really really miss e past. n of all these guys, i miss aik siong e most. no one calls me teng, lai in e same way now. i envy aik siong's class now in tj. they're so lucky. truely.

sharon @ 1:18 AM

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